Monday, August 16, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Being diagnosed with sleep apnea was my breaking point for getting banded. I had played with the idea for a long time but didn't decide for sure until I was told I need to sleep with a CPAP for the rest of my life.
I'm down just over 30 pounds now and I'm wondering when I can stop using it. Do I need to go for another sleep study becuase I really hated that!
Friday, August 6, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
I like to think I'm a quick learner. I've been proven wrong again! We went out for breakfast on Saturday morning. We were between gymnastics and swimming lessons. Shannon was going to take p'nut to swimming while I ran to the bank but we met for breakfast in between.
I was good, or so I thought. I had coffee, scrambled eggs with cheese and mushrooms. Food came...I started to eat. P'nut started to be a brat so I was forced to enhale a few bites before removing her from the table for a little talk in the bathroom. I knew I was a bit stuck when I got back to the table. I took another bite anyway because I guess i'm just a glutton for punishment. I requested a take home container then. I'd eaten maybe 5 bites of my breakfast.
I excused myself to the bathroom which was full of old women. Slime and spit are just pooling in my mouth. After then all left I finally got a stall and started trying to get the egg out. I took 25 minutes for me to finally get the food up. It was awfule. Easily the worst episode of stuck I've ever had. It was violent and LOUD and I got the ball of goo out.
Shannon came to check on me while I was in there and I was in tears. I promised I'd call the doctor for a slight unfill. I haven't gotten stuck or had any problem since. I really think the getting stuck is me. I'm not following the rules and I'm learning the hard and annoying way.
I think I may have finally figured it out. I ate chicken salad yesterday and had no problem. Chicken salad was somthing I had a problem with even before my big fill. I had chicken for dinner last night too and had no problem. I think I really may have figured it out.
Shannon still wants me to go get alittle taken out but I feel like i'm so close to the sweet spot....
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
I've been a bad bandster
I've been a bad weight loser
I've been a bad eater
I've been a bad excersiser
I've been a bad girl!
Since my injury, I gain 7 pounds. I'm mad but I'm back on the wagon. I've lost 2 of those in the past week
I went for a fill last week. A fill with upper GI. I have a 4 second delay now and man can I tell. I can't even make it thru 2 eggs before I feel stuffed. I can eat ice cream to my hearts content though. I really need to get that shit out of the house. But it's so delicious and it's summer. Stupid stupid slider foods. Why do you have to be so yummy?
So I'm back. I've been too mad at myself to blog and didn't want to admit i'm a big fat failure. I have to remember, there will be set backs...this isn't a quick fix!
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Yesterday morning, my Achilles started to ache. I ignored it, put on my birks and went to work. It ached pretty much all day. I walked my normal lunch stroll. Ache, pain, I pushed thru. I had Volleyball last night. I played. It ached.
I woke up with morning, got out of bed...OW! HOLY CRAP! The freaking hurts! Who just smacked me in the heel with a ruler? Son of a biscuit, that hurts!
I made an appointment with a Foot and Ankle specialist. I've partially torn my Achilles. No walking, running, jumping, swimming or physical activity for 10 days, at the least! Probably more like 3-4 weeks.
ugh! I'm aggrevated!
Shannon's got killer PMS. It happens every month...I spend 3 days questioning our relationship and wondering if she's really happy becuase not matter what I say or what I do, she's pissed off! I think i've finally figured out that it's PMS and not me. I feel better this month knowing that it will go away.
CPL is incredibly cranky too. She's been cranky forever though. If she's not eating, she's angry. Ugh!
I feel like I'm always the happy one trying to cheer everyone up.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
You know what that means...FOOD DAY!! And 2 bitches brought me donuts! Really? Really people? No one believes in veggies or fruit or nuts or something better for me than donuts? I LOVE YOU DONUTS but Frida does NOT like you at all!
P'nut's favorite song is Happy Birthday. She sang it to me about 20 times this morning. She's just too too cute!
We're going out for dinner tonight with CPL (crazy pregnant lady) and her baby daddy, my mom and sisters and brother in law and my nana and papa...we're going to Buffalo Wild Wings. I'm not sure what to eat there...any suggestions?
Love and Kisses!!! :)
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
So Saturday no wait maybe it was Sunday...it was Sunday, Shannon and I fruitlessly tried to start our lawn mower for 45 minutes. It's broken. We went to buy a new one. P'nut spots the Golden Arches and I ask Shannon is she's hungry. We pull in to the drive thru. I order my 4 pc kids meal with a large iced tea. We pull in to the adjacent Wal-Mart parking lot and I take a bite of my McNugget then a swig of tea, not thru the straw. OUCH. Oh that's not good. I try and bite of nugget because I'm a fat kid and I want more food. Nope...Not moving. More tea...oh that's really bad. The slime starts. SLIME SLIME SLIME SLIME SLIME SLIME. I've wasted of the napkins. I get out and walk around. I think I'm a bit better. I put the food away and get on the road. 3 miles later...I pull over.
It's 95 degrees outside. We're on a 4 lane road. I'm standing behind the truck (GMC Envoy) spitting yuck into the weeds. I'm next to the exhausted and my feet start to burn. I walk around and spit some more. Then get back in the truck. It's only a couple more miles to Lowes. I can make it. I think. We pull in the parking lot and I hope out of the drivers seat in the middle of the lane waving to Shannon. I can't talk. I've got too much goop in my mouth. Spit, spit spit spit spit spit spit spit spit.....walk walk walk walk walk walk walk. RELIEF. It goes down. The rest of the day is without incident. I stick with mushy foods.
Yesterday, CPL (crazy pregnant lady) and I head out for a shopping excursion. I have the p'nut and she wants a hot dog. Ok. I can eat a hot dog. Again, I order a hot dog and an iced tea. Two bits in and I'm stuck again. Yeah, I drank so tea too. DAMN IT! This time it's worse. I'm in the bathroom when are slimy ball of food finally come up. SWEET relief. I think it's over. We pack up to go. In the parking lot, the slime start again. WTF? I thought I just PB'd this stuff up? 30 minutes of spitting later the food goes down.
Am I too tight or am I getting stuck because I'm breaking the no drinking rule?
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Anyway...I stepped on the scale. I nearly cried but instead got really really PISSED OFF! I gained. I knew it. DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN! 6 pounds. WTF?!?!?!? My appointment is today at 4:15. I know I beat this weight monster and meet my goal. I just need to know that there will be ups and downs. I need to focus on the downs and keep fighting! The best part is, even though it's only 30 pounds lost, I feel better and I'm more active with my daughter. That was my number 1 goal and I've done it. I just want more. I want to be more active and to do that, I need to lose more weight. I CAN DO THIS!
Sunday, May 23, 2010
I'm sure I'll have lots of pictures to post!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
I think I'm allergic to it and that make me so sad!!
I got my GoWearFit yesterday from Amazon. I payed for 2 day shipping so I could have it before the weekend. I charged it up and wore it to bed because I so super excited to try it out. P'nut slept with me last night so, my sleep was not the greatest but I also couldn't tell this thing was BURNING!!!
I'm trying it on my other arm today because I want it so bad! I'm so exited to have this thing and so sad that I like I might be allergic to it.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Mike and I used to get in all sorts of trouble together. We had fake ID's and bar hoped when we were in our teens. We drove drunk and ended up in opposite jail cells at one point in time. We were crazy, STUPID kids!
Here is some proof of how much we all can grow over the years. He is now a generous, responsible and incredible man. I am so proud to call him my friend.
If you need some inspiration or need to inspire someone, share this incredible story.
How do I ask for a bigger fill? I know he's only going to want to do half a CC. How do I ask for more than that? Can I tell him I want at least 1cc? Do I say, I dont' mind coming back if it's too much? How do I get him to do more?
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I'm calling today to schedule a fill becuase I know I'm not losing. I haven't stepped on the scale and i KNOW it's going to say I gained. I can feel it. I've gained. I'm sad. I need to get back on the wagon.
Schedule Fill and get back on track.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I've lost 22 inches! HOLY CRAP! That's like 2 feet of me...gone! I can tell in my arms, which is awesome considering I LOVE tank tops but always hated wearing them. And now that I've lost 3 inches in my arm...I don't mind at all!
I'm still on scale strike.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
I've never been a puker. Even when I was pregnant, I wished I could barf. I'd be so neasous but nothing would ever come up. Well today I went to lunch with CPL (crazy pregnant lady) and another co-worker. I had the half pizza, half salad. When my plate go there, I dug into the salad. DELICIOUS!!! I ate a piece of broccoli....rut roh! Wait...Wait....Wait....Nope, not going anywhere. I take the walk to the bathroom where I continuously spit slime into the sink. EW EW EW. I'm the only on in the bathroom so no biggie. I walk back to the table and feel the gloriousness of the food sliding down....AHHHH..
I take a sip of water...all good. Moving right along. I take a bite of pizza. Frida doesn't mind. Eat more pizza...eat more salad. WHAT THE HELL??? I'm REALLY stuck now. I was paying no attention shoveling food into my pie hole and i'm super stuck now. I try to wait it out at the table. I ask to get my food wrapped and excuse myself to the bathroom...AGAIN!
On my walk to the bathroom, I start to get that salty taste in my mouth. I'm breaking into a sweat. There are weird noises trying to escape from my mouth. I sound like a frog...ribbit...ribbit. OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH. I'm in there for 15 minutes. Spitting. Cursing. Bending. Standing. Walking in circle. Arms in the air. I feel it coming up...I panic. Spit..Spit...spit. Oh god...oh God...OH GOD!!! RELIEF!!! Ahhh...I feel like a belimic. Sweet relief.
I rinse my mouth. I wash my hands. I don't feel so great. Heart burn like. I go back to the table. CPL knows what i've done. She asks if I'm ok. Of course I am. I'm totally fine. I just want to lay down.
So I'm going liquids for the next 24 hours. Frida is PISSED OFF!!!
Monday, May 3, 2010
Yesterday was my great-grandmother's 96th birthday. I wore a pair of size 16 Gap capris. They were comfy, no camel toe!! So I'm thinking this must translate into some actual pounds lost but I'm afraid that it won't and therefore I will not step on that stupid scale.
So Great Grandma is my dad's grandmother. The rate were going, she'll outlive my dad...sad! My dad of course was there showing off his beautiful purple legs and his grey diabetic toes. I somewhat stayed away from him becuase I'm still angry and hurt and I just don't know what else to say to him. I didn't do it on purpose, the avoidance thing. I just thought of it now, that I really didn't talk to him much at all.
On to other, happier things....Volleyball starts soon! I'm so excited! I can't wait. I'm with a new team this year so that should be interesting. I just got an invite for Beer In Hand Volleyball...one of my absolute favorite summer activities! We played for the first time last year and it was so so so much fun!! You have to maintain a certain amount of beer in your cup while playing the game. You can't set the cup down....serving the ball is the trickiest part.
Ahh...summer is a comin' ! I can feel it! I got a smidge of sun burn and I want more!! I'm really looking forward to this summer, with more self confidence and less fat holding me back....
Happy Monday BOOBs~~ xoxoxo
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Dad's test went better than expected. Turned out that he didn't have enough of a blockage to need a stent. I guess that's good. I listened to his excuses all day long. I was good. Made subtle comments but I'm pretty sure I didn't get through to him at all.
My surgeon's office on the same campus as the hospital. So, while Dad was doing his 4 hour wait after his procedure, i went for my appointment. He only gave me .5 a cc. What's with that? I said I can eat an entire cow and be hungry 3 hours later and you only give me .5 cc?
I'll make a better post tomorrow. I'm super tired and ready for bed.
Sleep tight BOOBs!!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
My daughter will not poo-poo in the potty! We've got pee pee down but when it comes to the poop, she asked for a diaper! Ugh! Kid! POOP IN THE POTTY!!!
So much of life revolves around poop. It's important to know how often you're supposed to poop. If the poop is hard. If the poop is loose. Why is poop so important? It's the waste. Do we need to study it as long as it's leaving?
My poop clock is still living in some other time zone. My guts are all kinds of crappy! Ha! Pun! I can feel the fullness but the poop won't get out.
I feel like Amy W...full of shit! Ha! I mean I poop but only alittle. I know there's got to be more poop in there!
Anyone see the movie House Bunny? It's one of those dumb humor kind of movies that you watch when absolutely nothing else is on TV. Like when the Home Shopping Network has ugly old lady clothes or TVs. There's a part when one of the girls is trying to flirt and she asks where the crapper is...she's got a load of timber to drop off. I know it's gross but also hysterical! What can I say? Not only am I a 15 year old Twilight addict, I'm also a 1o year old boy who thinks poop is funny!
The parents out there know what i'm talking about! Think about when your baby was a baby. How much did you talk about poop? ALL THE TIME! Everything was about baby poop. That's how it's getting to be around my house because if I'm not complaining about not being able to poop then I'm bitching about Riley pooping in a diaper or that Shannon can pretty much poop on command.
Ugh! Stupid poop.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Did you know that besides working full time, trying in vain to protect an accident prone 3 year old and being the best wife on earth, I am also a 3/4 time student? Yes! I'm a total super hero! I live on coffee and cigarettes while trying not to eat McDonald's because it's so convenient. Damn Ronald McDonald! DAMN HIM for putting a delicious, greasy, "what the f is in this food" restaurant on every other street corner in America! I'll admit it...I do like McDonald's but it literally makes me sick when I think about all the garbage that is in their food! But how do they make garbage and chemicals taste so good?
My little porty pain seems to be feeling a bit better but I left a message at the docs office to be sure. I'm having some weird right size pain now too. I'm thinking I over did it at the kiddo party yesterday. My nephew's third birthday was yesterday and I had to make a spectacle of myself and go in the big slidey bounce house with all the kidlets. I'm going to give some serious thought to building one of those bounce house places and market it as a gym for adults. I really think there could be something there.
Of course my Dad was at the party yesterday...outside smoking and inside eating countless pieces of pizza. There was salad too but I didn't see any greenery on his plate! I was angry watching him eat pizza.
Dad's tests are rescheduled for Thursday. I'm going to take him. I do think it seems alittle weird that my step mom isn't doing it. There's gotta be something going on there....I'm just not sure what. Last time he had this test scheduled, she had an annual grant meeting that she couldn't miss. She's a literacy something or other for Chicago Public Schools and her job pretty much depends on this grant and she couldn't miss the meeting, I understood then but not being able to take a day off to take your husband for test seems a bit odd....
I'm at work today...in pain and needing to finish my 15 page marketing paper. I wish I knew what this pain was? Maybe it's just gas? It's P'nut/Mommy night tonight! I love when it's just her and I. We get to be silly,no Momma around to tell us what to do! I'm Mommy and Shannon is Momma...that's how we know who's who.
So beautiful ladies...Have a wonderful day. HAPPY MONDAY!!!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
I have lunch with my boss' boss in a half hour. I really need to eat something that I don't get stuck with. Anything bready...I'm getting stuck and people always notice. Mainly because I just stop eating. I don't know if I'm eating too fast or if I'm eating too much bread. I just need to figure it out and really pay attention!
I'll weigh in on Wednesday and report what I've lost! I was bad today and didn't eat breakfast!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
If you don't want to rent a car when you get to Chicago - I'm more than happy to run the airport shuttle! Driving in the city can be scary if you're not a native! And, it costs money to park! It's kinda crazy!!
On to the me...
I lost a pound. woo woo...it's not a big WOO WOO because I totally thought it was going to be like 4 pounds. I'm angry with myself. My food choices have totally sucked. My excersise has been sporadic. I really really really need to get on the ball so when you Boobs get here, I've made some progress! My first goal was 50 pounds by June and i'm hangind around the 35 mark. I'm going to really need to buckel down to lose the next 15 pounds. Doesn't help that Shannon and the p'nut are making a cake right now as we speak!
That's all I've got for now. I'm sure I'll have more to say tomorrow!
xoxoxo...I really cant wait to meet all of you! I'm super duper excited!!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
The NSVs are good but I really really want to see the scale move in a big way.
How did all your work out crazies get and stay motivated? When do you work out and how do you justify the time away from your family?
Thanks band of blog buddies!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
So yesterday I pretty much worked out all day. I played for hours at the park with the P'nut. And by play I mean I climbed stairs and ran after her...and sat on the swing! That surely burned some calories. I wonder if it was enough to compensate for the Burger King kids meal I ate after the park!? Ugh! Damn the french fries! Those delicious, golden, hot, crispy, salty, carby bits of fried heaven! My absolute favorite food in the whole wide world!!
After the park, we came home and played a bit in the yard. Then I cleaned and vacuumed my car. Around 7, we were off to bowling!
According to thedailyplate.com, bowling for 3 hours burned 1269 calories! That seems incredibly high! Let's divide that by 4 since I bowl with 3 other people and surely they burned some calories too!
I had a very good calorie burning day yesterday. And then today, I'm on my butt on the couch!
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Anywhoo...on with the weight loss or lack there of! I had a 1cc fill on Monday and I've lost a half a pound. Thank you TOM for visiting the same week as the fill, Bastard!!! Between TOM and that satanic scale, I want to force weight loss by self liposuction with my Dyson!
I did have a NSV though....Shannon and I had $40 in Kohls cash to spend along with a 15% off coupon...couldn't let those go to waste! We went shopping yesterday. I bought a shirt...a NON PLUS SIZE SHIRT!! It's an XL but it's a regular size. I wore it today. I have big ladies on the top, not like Amy W's big lady tukey-ish bits! :) I have big girls. And to be able to fit the girls into an XL top is the greatest thing!
Here's a little background...I could almost always find pants in the "normal" size section after losing like 20 pounds. I could almost always get jeans at Old Navy, 18s or 20s but I couldn't fit their XXL shirts. I'm built upside down. I'm bigger on the top, 44 DD boobies and back fat to spare but no real butt or hips. One of my goals was to be able to buy a shirt in any store. I don't think i'm quite there yet, but I'm definitely on my way and that makes me so happy and way more motivated!!
Well, it's late and I'm sleepy. I was bowling night and I've had a couple cocktails! I'm a bit tipsy and way sleepy!
G'night my band of blog buddies. Hugs, Kisses and Sweet Dreams! :)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
So I'm hiding in a conference room far away from the food madness by my desk.
Today is just a glum day. It's foggy and rainy and stormy outside. I actually had to pull over on my way in today because the rain was so heavy. Maybe I'm sad that I won't be able to do my run/walk with the p'nut after work. Maybe I need some real food! Ugh! I really hope this fill works for me.
I'm so anxious to get to my sweet spot and continuosly lose weight. I seem to go in chunks lately. Big loss...than nothing. I feel great. My pants are hanging off my butt which is awesome and I want to shop but after I lose the next chuck, the new pants won't fit anymore.
I think I may make an appointment with the nutritionist. Why am I losing in chunks? I'll lose 4-5 pounds in 10 days and then nothing for the next 20. I guess I shouldn't complain but I'm kind of stalled already too. I've lost 33 pounds as of my weigh in yesterday at the docs office. That's awesome but I really really REALLY want more!!
I've totally rambled this post. I'm just in a funk today, I guess. Maybe I'll go out for lunch and check out TJ Maxx see if I can find some new pants? I'll see what CPL (crazy pregnant lady) wants to do. I'm sure she'll want to eat and I can watch her eat.
Ugh! SNAP OUT OF IT MICHELE! I can run and walk in the rain, right?
Monday, April 5, 2010
Soooo Friday I had work, of course. I went to work where pregnant, crazy, boss, bf, carpool buddy had a really bad day and actually yelled at me for work related stuff. Then I fed her lunch and she was better! We shared an egg salad sandwhich and some Munchos. Feeding the pregnant woman is the way to fix her! Shannon and the p'nut met us for lunch. We went to the park. It was so nice out! 80 degrees and sunny! I ran around the park with p'nut and then had to go back to work all sweaty but it was so worth it!
After work, crazy pregnant lady and I went to the mall. CPL(crazy pregnant lady) is my stylist and always makes me buy things that actually fit. I've always bought and worn shirts one size too big because God forbid the shirt touched my muffin top! Shannon and I had a wedding to go to on Saturday and I NEEDED a dress! My staple skirt is too big and my staple shirt has already been handed down to my sister. So, Macy's!!! I love an excuse to shop!
I fount 2 dresses. 2!! I can never find a dress that looks good! NEVER! OMG! I'm so happy! LOVE LOVE LOVE the dress I found. And of course I needed shoes too. LOVE LOVE LOVE the shoes! And then I needed a wrap/scarf to cover up with.
Satuday I had to go get my mani/pedi and get my eyebrows waxed. I was beginning to look like Burt from Sesame Street. I went to Famous Footwear and found the Avia version of the MBT or Sketcher rocker walking shoes. LOVE LOVE LOVE!! I can totally feel it in my butt! Then I went to Kohls. Shannon called me and said I needed to come home. P'nut went in the pantry to get a snack and a can of Mandarin Oranges fell on her toe. Her big toe nail is purple now. My poor poor baby! Her chin is all better and now her toe is jacked up! She can walk but she walks on the side of her foot to baby her big toe.
We went to the wedding and had a great time. Then came home and did the bunny thing. P'nut ended up sleeping with us. She had a VERY bad night and I'm thinking her toe was the culprit!
Sunday we woke up and went on an egg hunt around the house. Since it was so nice out we went to the park. Then went for breakfast. At breakfast we decided to take a quick train ride. Riley LOVES the train. So, Riley and I rode the train. We got on at one stop and got off at the next. Then we came home and got ready to go to my sister's for Easter dinner.
My butt is sore from my new Avia rocker shoes. I got new cute shoes too and my kid has a blue toe.
I HAVE MY 2ND FILL TODAY!! I'm so happy becuase I'm so hungry and I need some help!!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I've been sick..blah blah blah. I know that was in there. Riley got her stitches out and now has those Steri-Strip things holding her boo boo together. It used to be a fight to get a band-aid on and now she's like Fifty-Cent wearing it as a fashion statement - she doesn't want to take it off!
So along with me being sick came eating for comfort and boredom. Now, I don't eat alot of things but I do eat all the wrong things! Ice Cream...ok it's low fat, light blah blah blah but it's ice cream! Popcorn. Not horrible on it's own, air popped and tasting like cardboard but that's not what I'm snaking on. Bring on the butter or the kettle corn....Hold on, I'm drooling! Ok, took a sip of water to stop salivating. Pretzels. My #1 enemy. I can eat an entire box of those hard Snyders Sour dough pretzels. OH MY GOD! I love to chip a tooth on those bad boys! And well, let's face it...when your sick with the sniffles, sneezes, sinus head ache from hell, ouchy ears and the poops that come along with the antibiotics, you eat whatever you want.
The scale wasn't too bad to me but I did run around like a mad woman at the bounce house on Saturday. Riley had a birthday party for her "boyfriend" and I swear I went down the bouncy slide more than she did. It was awesome! Best work out ever! They should make adult bounce house places...make the bouncy things bigger and market it as a workout facility...hmmm, That's not a bad idea....
Here's a pic of all of us on the big slide. I'm all the way on the right with Riley in my lap. My sister is the one all the way on the left. My bro-inlaw is behind her with my nephew and then Shannon next to me.
So any who...Yesterday I had a trade show to attend and that's a work out too. I was sweating like a piggie! And it was BEAUTIFUL outside! It's georgous again today and it's supposed to be amazing again tomorrow. Riley just wants to be outside all the time and I'm totally game for that!!
This is my little Tom Boy outside in her boy's Thomas t-shirt! Have I ever told you all how addicted my DAUGHTER is to Thomas the train? Addicted! A-DIC-TID! She will only wear Thomas "panties" and if you know anything about Thomas the train, they don't make girls Thomas unders. So, my little girl where's boy's undewear. Yes, the gay moms put their daughter in boy unders. My kid is going to have such a complex! She does carry a purse though. She carries a purse all the time. You want to know what's in her purse? TRAINS! That's right! Thomas, Percy, James, Emily, Molly, Rosie...all of them are in the purse!
So I'm down 2.5 pounds in 2 weeks. Eh...that's ok. I get my next fill on Monday. Thank god!!! I've been good today...so far but I do plan on doing a little bit of running/walking tonight since it's SOOOO nice outside. Maybe I can drop another pound before Monday.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
I ate it. I admit it...I ate the donut. And it was good and then I felt like a total failure! I haven't dropped any pounds even though I've dropped my pants. And in my discouragement, I ate the donut.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Sooooo...usally by now, I have planned what I'm going to have for dinner and it usually include Noodles & Co. tomato soup, potstickers and Iced Tea but I'm not feeling Noodley today.
Around school are all sorts of goodies, Subway, Quiznos, BWW, McD, Arbys but what do I want to eat? The scale has been a big jerk lately and I TOM is vitsiting, AGAIN! I hate TOM. Stupid TOM makes me want Snickers and m & m's! I was thinking about doing a quick run before school...Just alittle jog to keep me from going to the vending machine before class....
So, HELP!! Tell me what to eat!
Sunday, March 14, 2010
The scale has been bouncing between gaining a pound...Losing a pound...gaining a pound....losing a pound. Grrrr...I'm not stepping on that f-ing thing until Wednesday at the earliest!
Usually at our local greasy spoon, I ask to sit at a table since sitting in a booth can be tight and uncomfortable. Today, they showed us to a booth. I was nervous and I let the host walk away and asked P'nut if she wanted to sit with Mommy or Momma and then I scootched my body into the booth. I have room!! My tummy isn't even close to touching the table. WOO WOOOOOO!!!
I just took a bath with P'nut. I haven't done it in a while and she's super crabby today. The time change is terrible with a 3 year old! So I get in the tub with her and I have more room. It's not like I'd get stuck in the bath tub but I used to feel like a hippo in bath tub and now i feel more like a person in a bath tub.
It's kind of sad but happy at the same time. My favorite jeans are too big. We had bowling last night (yes bowling...I know, we're SO Roseanne Conner) and I nearly lost my pants once. That's was the moment I decided I have to give up wearing them.
All in all, I'm feeling great, but I sure wish the scale would starting moving down again.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
My fill didn't even last a whole week!?!?! Well that kinda sucks! I'm not overeating but my portions aren't near as small as they were over the weekend or on Monday. What happened to my tightness??
I just split a meal with a friend. I ate less than she did which is way better than pre-band when I may have left her hungry but I still had over a half a cup of food. I'm sure if I would've eaten slower I would have eaten less because now I feel full but a couple days ago, I would have been uncomfortable and stopped.
My next fill appointment is April 5th.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Last week I set a goal for myself. Since i was so close to 30 pounds, I wanted to lose 3o by my 6 week bandiversary. I didn't meet the goal but I am closer! I'm down 29.5...well one scale said 29.5 the other said 29. Let's be honest ladies, the lower scale is always right!!
So I've had a great morning even with it taking me an hour and twenty minutes to make it to work. I'm at a closer bulding today, it should have taken me 40 minutes MAX! Oh well. I stopped this morning to get cigarettes...Let me stop here...I know smoking is bad. I know that I'm a dirty dirty smelly yucky smoker! I want to quit, I really do but it's super hard. I quit while pregnant and while nursing but I picked it right back up again and now I'm having a really hard time putting those dirty stinky sticks down. Don't get on me about smoking...I know, I know,I know! One thing at a time...first weight, then the cancer sticks.
Ok so I stop at the gas station and I decide to get some lotto scratch tickets since I have $3 in my wallet, I got $3 worth. I'm walking out of the gas station and there's a penny on the ground. I picked it up. Come on now! I just bought lotto tickets, I lost 29+ pounds AND I find a penny?!?! I'm totally winning a gazillion dollars on these scratch tickets! I didn't. I won $4 but hey, I'm up a dollar!
I stopped at crackbucks and got my crack...I mean I stopped at starbucks and got my coffee and now I am at work.
In traffic this morning,I decided it was a pefect photo op. I took out my handy dandy Crackberry (black berry) and snapped a picture of me for my 6 week, 29.5 pounds lost gift to myself! I look BEAUTIFUL!! I just got my hair done on friday too so my red is super bright!
Monday, March 8, 2010
I'm half way thru my calories which kind of sucks but I'm more than half way thru my protein! What do you think? Is this a good day or a bad day? I'm thinking good because I'm feel fantastic!!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
So I've been looking for nominees and I think everyone has been nominated!! And if they haven't been nominated, I totally think they deserve to be!
I don't have tons and tons of followers and I kind of like it that way. I can pretty much keep up with the 42 followers. I can read your posts most of the time. I may not always comment, but I do drop by to check up. I'm like a mama bear in a baby banded bear body!
If you are here - reading my blog and having any emotional reaction, you deserve an award!!
So here is the award...
I love all my followers and you all are like a good bra - supportive and beautiful!! Now if I could fit into that bra in the picture....well that's a whole other post!
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
Thursday, March 4, 2010
I laid down, he felt my port. I sat up while he got the needle and such ready. Saw the needle...laid back down!!! He asked me to tighten my tummy muscules, like push my belly out at him. and then just a little poke. I was more suprised the way he pulled that bad boy out of there..YANK! He put a band aid on, asked me to take a few sips of my coffee and wa-la! All done.
Shannon and the P'nut were with me. Riley kept saying "Mommy's getting a shot just like Riley." after it was done she said it was her turn for a shot! She's so cute!
We went to eat after. Well they ate and I tried to drink some milk and eat some soup, chicken noodle minus the noodles. A couple swigs of milk and I thought I was going to lose it! Too too too fast chugging the milk I guess. I waited about 5 minutes and tried a small spoon full of soup...ok. Took a small sip of milk...ok. I was done. That was 2 hours ago and now my tummy is in full growl mode!
Getting fills is nothing! He didn't numb the area or anything and there was no rooting around for my port. Poke, plunge, pull. Nothin' to it!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
No weight loss to report today since I refuse to step on the scale while Aunt Flo hangs around!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
My sugeon's bill...$6000! My portion of that $147. WOO HOOO!!!
I still haven't gotten the anesthsiologist, radiologist or whatever ologist I saw, I haven't gotten their bills. I'm guessing after all is said and done, I'll spend just under $1000 out of pocket.
Here's some TMI - turn away now if you don't want to know about my poop and female time....
I'm down 24.5 pounds as of this morning. I haven't pooped in 2 days...I think I need some oatmeal or prune juice. If I poop, I'll bet I've lost more!
I got my period too. Whoa! This one is heavier and more painful than before. I'm not sure what that's all about. I wasn't on the pill before surgery, maybe it's my lack of real food? Maybe I'm missing something that makes it lighter.
Glad to read that everyone is doing well!
Monday, February 22, 2010
Ugh! I've got a cold or something like a cold. I feel like crap! Runny nose, sore throat, yucky white spots on my tonsils. Shannon's trying to get me to go to the doctor and I just want to try and let it run it's course. If it gets worse or if I can't swallow then I'll go. Can I get liquid antibiotics?
I'm down 24 pounds now. Weight loss is definitely slowing down but I'm so happy to actually chew food! Soft foods are so good! Cheese! oh I missed you cheese! Cheese rolled up with sliced turkey breast with a bit of light mayo...YUM! and Saltine crackers?? Oh my the crunch! The crispiness of those salty blond delicious squares....
And now I'm off to blow my nose and lay on the couch. Thank God for sick days!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Just becuase I'm fat doesn't mean you need to feed me as a thank you. A simple email is great! These paczki (POOCHKEY) things smell so good! I used my finger and scooped some filling...it's so sweet and delicious! STEP AWAY FROM THE PASTRY!
Oh and I order girl scout cookies like a month ago...guess what was delivered? Why do I do this to myself! I wonder if I can suck on a thin mint....
Today is 3 weeks post op and I feel super fantastic. I'm down 22 pounds and my work pants are falling off. I can't wait to see the nutritionist so she can tell me I'm a good to move to soft foods. I feel like I'm doing so well and I don't want to rush it but breakfast is getting alittle monotonous, scrambled eggs with cheese. Lunch is getting old...SOUP SOUP SOUP SOUP. And dinner...soup or somthing ground up in the food processor. Can I please have some fish or something with some substance!?!?!? I might kill for a noodle.
Still though...22 pounds in 21 days is just awesome!!!
Monday, February 15, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I'm eating mushy. I'm doing pretty good sticking to it but I really want a salad. How weird is it to crave something so diety? And that's what I'm on now, a diet. I have no restriction so I just have to watch what I'm eating.
I have an appointment on the 19th, I wonder if I can get a fill that day?