Oh my! My surgery is tomorrow! Ahhhhhh!!!
This morning I've had coffee and I'm starting my first big cup of water. I'm going to have a protein shake soon but I don't want to have it too soon and be hungry too early.
I'm getting more and more nervous. On Friday, I stopped at GNC on my way home from work. I grabbed two flavors of protein water and two flavors of IsoPure protein powder. I tried the water. YUCK! That was just digusting. I can't bring myself to try the other flavor but it's not the flavor that gets me, it's the after taste and the way it makes me mouth feel. Gross!! I can't bring myself to try the powders.
I'm going to take my before pictures tonight. I haven't decided if I'm going to post them yet.
Ugh! I'm scared. My stomach turns when I think about being wheeled into the room. I know I'm going to have a mini panic attack. I sure hope they have some nice calming meds ready when I get there! Since I can't take my own crazy pill in the morning, they better have a crazy shot ready! I just keep reminding myself what I'm doing this for. This isn't about how I look, though that is a HUGE plus, this is for my health!! I want to be healthy! I want to be here. I don't want to be diabetic. I want to not take a crazy pill (Anti-anxiety meds). I don't want to take asthma medication. I want to be more active! I want to run around! I want to go in the bouce house thing! I want to swing on swings. I want to not feel like a spectacle when I'm lumbering around. I want a LIFE!