39 grams of protein before noon!

It's a new record for me and I didn't even have to choke down a poop inducing shake! I'm on target to hit 80 grams today and thank goodness for that! My hair is falling out by the handful and I'm starting to resemble a middle aged man with a horseshoe comb over!

So far by food has gone like this...

Wake up and have a CIB (carnation instant breakfast for you people that don't text and still spell everything out!)

On the way to work, Stop at SBucks because I'm a total Starbucks whore and I was way too lazy to make my own coffee this morning. So I got a Cappuccino.

Arrive at work and answer emails and decide I'm a tad hungry so I head to the cafeteria for some scrambled eggs with cheese. I didn't eat it all but I don't know how to count fractions of eggs. If it's on my plate, I count it as ate!

I'm half way thru my calories which kind of sucks but I'm more than half way thru my protein! What do you think? Is this a good day or a bad day? I'm thinking good because I'm feel fantastic!!

AWARD!! For me? Let me get my speech ready...

First I'd like to thank the academy for giving me this award! Just kidding but THANK YOU FOR THE AWARD!!

So I've been looking for nominees and I think everyone has been nominated!! And if they haven't been nominated, I totally think they deserve to be!

I don't have tons and tons of followers and I kind of like it that way. I can pretty much keep up with the 42 followers. I can read your posts most of the time. I may not always comment, but I do drop by to check up. I'm like a mama bear in a baby banded bear body!

If you are here - reading my blog and having any emotional reaction, you deserve an award!!

So here is the award...



I love all my followers and you all are like a good bra - supportive and beautiful!! Now if I could fit into that bra in the picture....well that's a whole other post!

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Thank you fill! I'm totally in love with 3 cc's of saline! I mean, I'm sure I'll want more in a couple weeks but right now, totally in love with it!!! I can eat but not a lot...it's just perfect!

Givin' back some love!

I just need to tell you all how much I love and apprciate every little bit of support you give me everyday! I don't think I realized how much I would rely on my blog buddies for guidance and acceptance and kindness. I love you all for not judging my shamrock shake and giving me a push to just keep going!

That said...I'M STARVING!! I need this fill to loosen up! Just a little bit. I want some eggs! I want some creamy soup! I want something other than liquids! I can only eat half a yougurt...you know how long that shuts my stomach up for? About 20 minutes then it's back to growling like a wild animal!

Bring on the support buddies! I'm about to eat my arm off!!

Got a filly!

I got my first fill!! WOO HOOOO!! I got 3cc. I'm so excited. I didn't even expect a fill today. I thought he'd make me go home and wait 2 more weeks but nope, he asked if I was hungry between meals, I said yes and he said that it sounds like it's time for a fill. Like I was going to argue?

I laid down, he felt my port. I sat up while he got the needle and such ready. Saw the needle...laid back down!!! He asked me to tighten my tummy muscules, like push my belly out at him. and then just a little poke. I was more suprised the way he pulled that bad boy out of there..YANK! He put a band aid on, asked me to take a few sips of my coffee and wa-la! All done.

Shannon and the P'nut were with me. Riley kept saying "Mommy's getting a shot just like Riley." after it was done she said it was her turn for a shot! She's so cute!

We went to eat after. Well they ate and I tried to drink some milk and eat some soup, chicken noodle minus the noodles. A couple swigs of milk and I thought I was going to lose it! Too too too fast chugging the milk I guess. I waited about 5 minutes and tried a small spoon full of soup...ok. Took a small sip of milk...ok. I was done. That was 2 hours ago and now my tummy is in full growl mode!

Getting fills is nothing! He didn't numb the area or anything and there was no rooting around for my port. Poke, plunge, pull. Nothin' to it!

I Hate you!

I F-ING HATE YOU SCALE! F YOU AND YOUR NON-CHANGING DIGITAL DISPLAY! MAYBE IF I TOSS YOU OUT OF MY BEDROOM WINDOW YOU'LL SHOW ME A DIFFERENT NUMBER YOU SON OF A BISCUIT EATING BULLDOG! WHAT THE FRENCH TOAST!

I feel a bit better now!

Wow...that's uncomfortable!

I'm eating my normal breakfast, scrambled eggs with cheese. Sitting at my desk, shoveling eggs into my pie hole, reading email, not paying attention and then...WHOA! What's that? That's not right? OUCH! OUCH! OUCH! BURNING! BURNING!!! Gonna barf! GONNA BARF!! Sip some water. Still gonna barf. I look down...Oh boy, I've eaten a lot! I wasn't paying any attention to my chewing or the size of bites. I'm guessing that I got stuck! Actually stuck on scrambled eggs! Stand up! Stretch. Pace around my cubical. Spit into the garbage can. Sit down. Take a deep breath....RELAX. RELAX RELAX!!!! Egg passes. AHHHHH.....Sip of water. I feel it go thru. One more small bite of eggs, it makes it through and I tossed the rest.

So I stepped on the scale this morning! STUPID STUPID STUPID!!! I had a Shamrock Shake yesterday. I paid today. I'm at 240 this morning! I gained a pound between my period and eating the stupid Shamrock shake. I'm hoping this pound drops off! So I gained a pound but my pants are loser than last week. What's with that? My bras are getting too big too. I have big girls so I don't mind losing a tad in the ta ta area. So the scale moves up and the pants fall down? I don't get it but the scale is just a number but the way I feel is the true test. Even with this cold that won't go away, I feel super fantastic about how my close fit!